"You can't be so negative"

Well I guess that's right... Especially since the world is ALREADY negative enough.

Bring in some positive energy!

Well I would love to, actually, but honestly, I can't. Not now at least... And I ACTUALLY know why...

It's a good life :)

It's a good life. Yes it is.

At least I have something to fight for. At least I have people to be angry with. At least I have things to complain about. At least I have stuff that I hate to do.

Come on, it's a good life. And it'll be even better soon. Hang in there!!!

Fresh-cut grass, one cold beer.
Thank the Lord I am here and now, here and now.
Summer dress, favorite park.
Bless your soul we are here and now, here and now.

I'm wide awake,
So what's the point of dreaming when your life is great?
Celebrate the feeling 

Can't complain about much these days
I believe we'll be okay
Wanna scream it out, I believe we'll be okay.

Sun-kissed skin on my lips.
Thank the Lord I am here and now, here and now.
Fireflies after dark.
Bless your soul we are here and now, here and now.

We'll be okay. We'll be okay.
Can't complain about much these days
I believe we'll be okay

For Good

I love Wicked the musical, (I mean who doesn't right... ;p), and more than the musical, I love the songs. So so much... <3 And this was one of them, not only because it was so relatable, but also when I first heard it I kinda teared up, simply cuz it reminded me of all the people in my life who have impacted me in one way or another. Honestly these are the people who make me who I am, and I am who I am, because I knew them...

(Elphaba):
I'm limited
Just look at me
I'm limited
And just look at you you can do all I couldn't do, Glinda

So now it's up to you
For both of us
Now it's up to you

(Glinda):
I've heard it said
That people come into our lives for a reason
Bringing something we must learn
And we are led
To those who help us most to grow
If we let them
And we help them in return

Well, I don't know if I believe that's true
But I know I'm who I am today
Because I knew you...

Like a comet pulled from orbit
As it passes a sun
Like a stream that meets a boulder
Halfway through the wood
Who can say if I've been changed for the better?

But because I knew you
I have been changed for good

(Elphaba):
It well may be
That we will never meet again
In this lifetime
So let me say before we part
So much of me
Is made of what I learned from you

You'll be with me
Like a handprint on my heart
And now whatever way our stories end
I know you have re-written mine
By being my friend...

Like a ship blown from its mooring
By a wind off the sea
Like a seed dropped by a skybird
In a distant wood

Who can say if I've been changed for the better?
But because I knew you

(Elphaba):
And just to clear the air
I ask forgiveness
For the things I've done you blame me for

(Glinda):
But then, I guess we know
There's blame to share

(Both):
And none of it seems to matter anymore

(Both):
Who can say if I've been
Changed for the better?
I do believe I have been
Changed for the better

Because I knew you...
I have been changed for good...

Is it weird?

Is it weird if I say that there are many people in this world whom I hope care for me, but my family is not one of them? 

Is it weird if I say that I love some people, who's not my family, just as much, or maybe even more, than I love my family? (But it's a different kind of love you know...) 

Is it weird if I say that I myself don't know what I want? (Regardless whether it is life, or school, or people, or anything actually...) 

 

Courage VS Bravery

Alright, so I haven't been writing that often, and maybe it's cuz I don't have anything to write about, but in actual fact, it's cuz I have too much to write about and honestly don't know where and how to start..

I think it's appropriate to break the long silence with a post about a conversation I had with KX some time ago. This all started early this year, during the literature mentor ship exhibition. Ms Cheng was at our booth, and we were talking about how the soldiers in the past were so brave to fight in the war and sacrifice their lives, but were not brave enough to admit to the world about their sexual orientation. So then I said something from the top of my mind really, and when Ms Cheng asked me to explain what I mean, I realise that I myself have no clue what I just said...

Basically I said, "Well, the soldiers were brave, but not courageous..." 

Hmmm... Sounds so deep right??? ;p Well I've been thinking of what I meant by this ever since then, at random times really, but KX was the first person I told. She was just sitting there that Friday morning alone, and I just felt the urge to go sit next to her, (not caring whether or not i was intruding actually... sorry about that... ;p) and for a while we were just quiet. We talked about something, I'm not sure what, but then after a moment of tranquility, I just asked her, "What's the difference between courage and bravery?" 

She told me something along the lines of the two of them being somewhat interchangeable, and actually I think so too... To some extent these two are interchangeable, and if you wanna get into the real difference, you probably have to dissect the word and do some long and deep research to figure out.

But then I got home and one night, when "Mr Sleep" does not want to be my friend like usual, I thought of what those two words meant to me.

And I got it.

You see, though bravery and courage mean the same thing essentially, they have different connotations really. You use bravery to describe "oh the soldiers are so brave to put their lives at stake and fight for their country", but you use courage when you say "please dear God, please give me the courage to live". You don't hear people say "please give me the bravery to live", do you?

And so I think, bravery is something more tangible than courage. It's hard to articulate this, and probably you won't understand me, but I think maybe courage is deeper and more noble than bravery... Bravery could mean completing a dangerous action maybe, but courage could exist in the smallest and most minute things, in fact, I think courage is shown more through the most inconspicuous details.

So maybe what I meant when I said that to Ms Cheng was that the soldiers were brave to risk themselves for their country, since they could potentially lose everything by going out to war, but they didn't have the courage, something that is more powerful than bravery, to be true to who they are.

Exasperated...

Right... THAT's the word... 

Have you ever felt that way? I thought it was just me...