Choice

Did we have a choice whether or not to live?

Do we have a choice what to do and how to do it?

Will we ever have a choice how we want to live?

Maybe we do...

But how come those who had the courage to make that choice to live the way they want are deemed as the "special" and "different" people?

Was life ever a matter of choice? I really don't know...

Things that Stop you Dreaming

I've got no money in my hand, or my coat, or my pocket.
Won't get to space 'cause I haven't got a rocket.


But I have air in my lungs, eyes in my sockets
And a heart that beats like a tap that leaks
In the night when you haven't got a plumber that can stop it, 


Well, this boat may sink, but I'm not gonna rock it
Cuz the sea doesn't know my name.


Well, if you can't get what you love, 
You learn to love the things you've got.
Well, if you can't get what you love, 
You learn to be the things you're not 
If you can't get what you need, 
You learn to need the things that stop you dreaming.

All the things that stop you dreaming.

Well, I've got no-one's word and nobody's promise, 
Not a lot to show but this book full of sonnets.

In the summertime when everyone gets on it, 
Warm our skins and get sunburned from it.


And our eyes shine bright like a sky full of comets
That shoot like silver trains.


Well, if you can't get what you love, 
You learn to love the things you've got.
If you can't be what you want, 
You learn to be the things you're not.
If you can't get what you need, 
You learn to need the things that stop you dreaming.

All the things that stop you dreaming.

Another Sogurt date! <3

Dunnie and I went to Sogurt yesterday, and we both had Belgian Waffles, which was AWESOME! :) 

So we took, or rather Dunnie took photos of our delicious waffles, so credits to her AWESOME photography! :D it's a pity we didn't take photos of us though... 

L

L could stand for anything.

Loneliness.

Liberty.

Legacy.

Maybe even Losers.
...

But for today, L stands for
Letters and Love

Loving Letters.

We'll be there :)

Oh, why do you look so sad?

Tears are in your eyes

Come on and come to me now

Don't be ashamed to cry

Let me see you through

'Cause I've seen the dark side too

I think you've been going through some pretty dark days for a long time, and recently, things just got worse... 

When the night falls on you

You don't know what to do

When you're standing at the crossroads

And don't know which path to choose

Let me come along

'Cause even if you're wrong

I'll stand by you

(By the way, go read this book when you have the time, but read it at home only ok? Unless you want to embarrass yourself outside with puffy eyes and a runny nose...) 

Well I don't know exactly what happened, but I am pretty certain this has got something, if not everything, to do with stress. So I just want to say, we're all in this together, so though I may not fully understand your circumstances, I think I can empathise with you, and support you through all of this. 

Hey, what have you got to hide? 

I get angry too

Well I'm actually a lot like you. 

So, if you're mad, get mad

Don't hold it all inside

Come on and talk whenever you want

Like I told you today, I'm a nocturnal person, so if you end up crying and worrying about things late into the night, you can be sure that I'll be looking at the same night sky, and you know how to get me, so just pop by, and we'll talk. We'll rant about all the stupid things that we are made to do, and complain about all the useless stuff that those people claim are for our own good. We'll talk, and even though it won't solve the problem, at least you'll feel better. Or so I hope... 

Take me into your darkest hour

And I'll never desert you

I'll stand by you

When the night falls on you, 

And you're feeling all alone

You won't be on your own

This World

You said that I'm so lucky, to have never been teased, to have never been bullied, to have never been humiliated. Well I just want to tell you, some times, things happen and no one knows. But that doesn't mean that those things did not happen, neither does that mean that I've forgotten them. So you think I've never been teased, or bullied, or humiliated. Really? Is it that I've never been treated like a loser, never been looked down upon? Or is it that you just don't know?

Well let me tell you little darling, in life we all have our fair shares of everything. You can never always be the best, and you can never always be the worst. You can never be the most popular, and you can never be the most hated. But most importantly, God will NEVER let someone have ALL the happiness, and another person have ALL the pain.

We're different, so your idea of "being bullied", is your friends joking about your score. And what's more ridiculous, is that you're the highest in class, and you are just a mere 4 years old. So in this case, they're being kind in their "bullying". But do you have any idea what happened to me? It's ok if you don't cuz I promised myself that I will NEVER let anyone know about these nasty, sad and "loser-like" moments, because I need my pride. I've lost it before, thanks to a special someone who convinced me that I was a loser, and for those who haven't, it sucks. Really. So I won't let myself lose it again.

Then I asked you what you thought of the world. You said people are nice, and things are happy. WOW. I remember when I used to think like that too. When was that? Seems like a thousand miles away.. But I understand. When you're that young, you think that the world is make of chocolates and sweets, and everyone are angels without their halos. I don't want to spoil that image in your mind, cuz it's just so perfect. And I want you to see for yourself exactly how evil this world can be.

You think people are angels huh? Yup, there are indeed many angels around, but do you know, some of these angels are just putting up this face to trick you, waiting for that one moment to tear you apart and leave you alone, broken. And then there are the other people who don't even act like angels. They are the devils that you'll see. They treat you as badly as those "angels", but the good thing is, they won't trick you. And sometimes, in these devils, you'll see a little angel. Perhaps the angel is so tiny that you'll need to squint to see it, but it's there, and you know it. I hope you see the real angels and the real devils.

Well my little angel, I love you so very much, and I don't want you to be scared by the devils. To be honest, everyone is both an angel and a devil. But I'm very sorry, but some people to me are just plain devils, but that's because they did some pretty nasty things to me that left me broken and made me cry. I know they have an angel in them, but little darling, I'm sorry, I don't bother looking for the angel in these people. But I know you will. You are a little angel, so use your little magic, fix those broken people, and change those people who break others.

Fate and your Dreams

Dreams, you never know where they come from, or what they really mean, or why they happen.

Fate, you never know what happens next, or who you are going to meet, or where you will end up.

But if you hold tight, shadows will be lost in the light.
Cuz sometimes, fate and your dreams can collide.