Lean On Me :)

Sometimes in our lives 
We all have pain 
We all have sorrow 
But if we are wise 
We know that there's always tomorrow 

Lean on me, when you're not strong 
And I'll be your friend 
I'll help you carry on 
For it won't be long 
'Til I'm gonna need 
Somebody to lean on

Please swallow your pride 
If I have things you need to borrow 
For no one can fill those of your needs 
That you won't let show

You just call on me brother, when you need a hand 
We all need somebody to lean on 
I just might have a problem that you'd understand 
We all need somebody to lean on

If there is a load you have to bear 
That you can't carry 
I'm right up the road 
I'll share your load 
If you just call me
Call me 

You know, life is tough, and of all people, you should know that best, but that's given... How we deal with it is our choice. I know it's been pretty much hell for you this period of time, but just know there are people around you who love you and will be here for you no matter what. And perhaps if you let time show you that the person you're killing yourself to become just isn't you, then maybe you'll find the happiness that you so deserve... I love you, and I want more than anything, for you to love yourself too. <3

Capricorns

"I'm not gonna limit myself just cuz people won't accept the fact that I can do something else..." 
                                                                                                                                             ~ Capricorns

Well the quote says it all. Capricorns, especially you two, are confident and set high goals for yourselves. You do not shy from taking risks, but you are not reckless. All your actions are planned and rehearsed before implementation. Your every move is calculated, not spontaneous. You appear to be calm and composed, but it is possible that you may be very emotional below the surface. You are pretty self-motivated, and will somehow manage to find opportunities when you need them. You have good powers of concentration, but can harbour a rather high opinion about yourself.

That's what's written on the website... And I don't know her very well, but I guess I can say that I know you well enough to know that whatever's said up there is pretty true, isn't it? And I want to tell you that as much as you are a "source of help" for everyone who needs guidance in their academics, you're also a great friend and advisor, and *ahem* predictor, to be around with... But perhaps you could maybe step back from yourself, and just take a look at what other people see in you -"amazingness"-  :) And maybe right now you think that you're not good enough, but just so you know, there are people around you who look up to you, and think that no matter how much you tell yourself that you're not qualified, we think otherwise, we'll embrace your Ms B fangirling, accept your caffeine highness, and just love you for who you are. And one day, you'll prove yourself wrong. I know you will. :)

So now, moving on to the part that you really wanna see...

Ok, honestly, I can't say that much, cuz I've literally just known  her for a couple of weeks, but already, seriously, I see why you love her so much. I mean of course I'll understand right, given that I have my own "Ms B". And just want you to know, that I totally get it. :) And yes, she's an amazing teacher(just look at how much she puts into our lessons) and a great person(your b'dae card). And really, I think you two are pretty compatible too... Like you two are both super sophisticated, with like super high-order-thinking (excuse me, what university did she graduate from again...) and both really articulate, both have a big heart, both carry yourselves well, and both Capricorns(that's fate, which I think kinda overrides all the other stuff cuz this kinda means that God made you two similar, and He wants you two to be together -I mean at least this is what I feel-)

Many professional men and women come out of this sign, especially orators, lecturers and teachers. Education and knowledge of all kinds will be very beneficial for you. 

Remember you told me before that you wanted to be a professor(or at least an occupation that does extensive research) when you grow up? I don't know if this should be freaky or fateful, but like just read the quote up there and like think about you and Ms B...

You know, actually if you piece up all the pieces, you'll find that you two are really similar, and who knows? Perhaps you were meant to be with her... And perhaps yes, you've fallen in love with the right person <3 (And trust me, I get how it feels... :p)

So I really don't know if this post is what you expected, or at least close to what you expected, but you know, you'll get to see her around like *ahem* 10 times a week, so give it time, and I'm pretty certain that you'll find what you've always wanted to have. With her. :)

Have you ever thought?

Have you ever thought what it would be like if we didn't exist? Or at least if we didn't exist as humans?

And have you ever thought what it would be like if we died? Or at least if we left this world? Will it be like in the movies, where people whom you've loved (and haven't loved) came around, grieved, mourned, regretted, cried, and made long speeches about how we've affected them...

And have you ever thought what your funeral would be like? I mean don't you want people to be genuinely devastated when they see you in that long wooden box? Don't you want to leave this world without leaving the hearts of the people you love (and didn't love)?

And don't you ever wonder what people will bring or do or say at your funeral? And I don't believe if you tell me that you've never thought about what you would want life to be like for some people after you're gone. And if you were to be incarnated, and given a second chance to live, don't you ever wonder what God will revive you into?

Sometimes, I wonder if I should tell people what I really want to say... I mean one day, we will all be gone, and sometimes I fear if I don't tell them whatever is inside of me, time will run out in a flash and before I know it, we'll be separated in some way or another and they'll never get to know what I really want to say. And that sucks cuz sometimes what I want to tell them is even better than what I said, and probably also better than what they want to hear.

But you know, it takes courage, a lot of it, to tell someone what you really want to tell them, and very often just mustering up enough courage takes forever. And maybe that's why people cry at funerals. Well I don't want to be the one weeping the tears of regret...

Disney characters

"So there are actually people who look, act and think like those Disney characters..."

"No. People build the Disney characters based on humans who are like them..."

It was a casual remark, but it meant quite a lot don't you think? So thank you PeiXi, for the unintended strike of wisdom.

Songbird

For you, there'll be no crying
For you, the sun will be shining
Cuz I feel that when I'm with you
It's alright
I know it's right

And the songbirds keep singing like they know the score
And I love you, I love you, I love you
Like never before

To you, I would give the world
To you, I'd never be cold
Cuz I feel that when I'm with you
It's alright
I know it's right

And the songbirds keep singing like they know the score
And I love you, I love you, I love you
Like never before

Secondary Orientation 2014!

So this is a pretty overdue post, but honestly, I didn't expect the first week or school to be as busy as this! But anyways, all is well, I mean at least I'm still coping. :) And I guess things could have gotten a lot worse, but thankfully my class is fully of sweetie pies, and all of our teachers are just the best of the best, so yup, though things are getting tougher, at least I know I'm not alone! XP

So basically Sec 1 Orientation just ended this week, and if I'm honest, I'm actually kinda really proud of what we did, like we really got to know our juniors a lot better, and got to make friends! :) And though I wasn't like a major contributing factor to this orientation, I'm pretty happy with the results, like I'm certain even the facilitators had loads of fun! (Except for the part where we had to catch up with whatever that we had missed during lessons... I mean like that was horrible man... ><)

But on the last day of the orientation, 111 (the awesome class that I was facilitating) came up and handed me a card (with well wishes and signatures) and my name on the cover. And literally I was like ... (<3 <3 <3) I mean how sweet can these people be? ;p

                                           

Yup so that was seriously pretty touching... And then during the level cheering competition, all the classes were really loud and energetic, which was a pleasant surprise as when we were teaching them the cheers, they were like -_-... So yay!

And the best part of it all, was that 111 actually won 3rd in place for the cheering competition! :) SUPER PROUD OF MY KIDZ!!! (OMG I sound like some crazy proud mom! ;p)

Then on Friday we elected our class committee and cuz we are such a tiny weeny class, everybody had a role. :) And I'm the History Rep! (Cuz Ms Chua is the History teacher!) And I guess now so many people know that I love her a lot, that I don't really bother any more... :P

And I guess most people are happy with whatever they have, but I'm pretty certain that you're not... >< And I guess I don't really know what to say, but just so you know, I actually really do believe that you were born to lead, and that you deserve to show that to the people around you! :) So right now, I kinda just want you to know that you're still an integral part of us no matter what, and that we'll welcome your suggestions, opinions, etc. with open hearts and minds! <3

314'14

So the first two days of school went pretty well, but for some reason, I feel so mentally fatigued... I mean like it's not even week 1 of lessons yet, and I'm already dying here, like literally... Maybe I need some more time to get used to this whole "2014 is a new beginning" kinda thing.

314 is pretty awesome, and it feels rather similar to 203, maybe cuz in 314, majority of the people were from 203, and I think that's pretty cool, like being in the same class with your best friends, and the best teachers for all 4 years of your secondary school life.

I should say that I'm really genuinely excited about starting lessons next week, but of course, the anxiety of not being able to catch up, or not understanding things that you should are still very much present... But you know, if it's something that scares you, it might be a good idea to try doing it... So yup, pretty hyped-up about kicking the academic year to a great start, hopefully...