Hiding Place

The world is a scary place, mommy and daddy told me many times, and it's literally the survival of the fittest, they added. That's why you have to constantly be the best of the best, and never stop pushing yourself to be the best that you can be. Even Ms Chua tells me that. And they are absolutely right. But I guess that probably everyone is so tired of life that they just comply to pushing and pushing and maybe in that process we forget what we are really here for. What we are made to do.

Enjoy the life that God has given us. That's what we were meant to do.

And because the world is so toxic now, perhaps many of us are infected by this influenza, and it's gotten so bad that you can literally even smell the "toxic-ness" in the air we breathe. And maybe that's why it's so important and yet so forgotten, to have a place of your own in this scary, domineering, ominous world. And maybe that's why when you showed me your "hiding place" in our school this morning, I was so... let's just say pleasantly surprised that there's actually a pure soul out here, right here in front of me, and in that moment when you told me that you were going to show me your hiding place, I felt so relieved, as if all I needed to do to escape this stressful world is to be with you, and soak up all your purity and pray that it will somehow penetrate the layers of poisonous rubbish in my heart and mind and save my unfortunately already polluted soul.

And though that hiding place is not technically secret, or personal, or intimate or whatever, I felt like I had found the solution to all my problems -anxiety, stress, insecurity, and everything else- to just find a corner in the universe that I can call my own, and share it with the people closest to me, and then when I need some refuge, some comfort, or just some serenity, I can just run into that somewhere only I know, and be myself, and not bother about what someone else thinks, or what the world hopes I was gonna do, or anything at all.

Then after we went to your hiding place, we spent some more time together, and you influenced me some more, by just being you, but I feel that the second part of our "pilgrimage-to-escape-the-horror-movie-called-life" should be saved for some other post some time else, cuz though you always give me lots to think about, I felt like today was different. Like today was just the two of us against everyone and everything else in this world, and I think that something so precious and rare should be saved, and shared among a few posts.

And just so you know, I haven't had such a beautiful morning in forever, literally. And thanks to you, I saw for myself today, what a beautiful morning really is, and trust me, it was indeed beautiful...