Just talk

Talking really helps. Especially during such a period of hecticness, stress, and basically total chaos.

When you're talking to someone, someone you love and trust, someone who loves and trusts you, it takes all the mess off your mind, and makes you feel there's only the two of you in this whole wide world.

I talked to you about all the things on my mind, all the stuff that keep me up till way after the clock strikes midnight, and all the negative energy in me that's devouring my soul. It felt so good to let it all out, something that I would never have done on my own accord.

For so long, I talked and ranted and cried. And you just sat next to me with an arm around my shoulders, kept quiet and listened.

Then I told you that the final wave was in one weeks' time. One week's time. And I told you about all the things that were at stake, which was basically everything to me. I also told you how one of my very good friends, an extremely wise person, told me about loving myself, letting things go, and believing that things will go right. Even if they don't, she told me to remember that there are people who love me, so I have to forgive myself and love myself. You said she was wise, but I said I'm not like her. I don't know why, I just can't let go of things, holding on to these somewhat useless things that make me more and more upset by the minute.

Well you were so understanding like always. You said that we're all different people, and along the way in life, we learn things that mold who we are, so you told me to keep searching for who I really am, cuz you said that I am not who I think I am.