Listen to your heart...

I just talked to you. You told me how angry you were with yourself. You told me how you hated yourself. You told me how you don't want to continue fighting anymore.

Well, I didn't know what to tell you just now. We are so far apart, literally. And the only way we could talk was via a video chat. I couldn't hold you tight and let you feel better. I couldn't put an arm  around you and tell you that that test does not define who you are. And I couldn't give you my shoulder to cry on.

I know this meant a lot to you. I know you are disappointed. And I know that everyone has told you that it's ok, that this time, it is an exception, that you are better than that score. But I know, that it is not ok. I know you are disappointed, cuz I've been there before.

But darling,

Perhaps you think it's all over, it's all gone, just like that, in a puff. But you know what, when you think it's over, God always has a way of showing you that it's not. All you've gotta do is be patient and wait. And be kind to yourself. You said you don't want to fight anymore, but hey,

You know you've got this right, and the whole world knows. You've come such a long way, it's not time to give up yet. Darling, try one more time, believe in yourself just one more time.

You know, you always told me what you thought courage was. You said courage is being able to try time after time again, even though you're afraid of failing. Yup, that's it! Just try one more time dear, just one more time. Everything happens for a reason darling, and you know that. Maybe God was trying to tell you something? Maybe He was telling you that this is not meant for you? You know that too yourself don't you? This is what people think you can do well in, but you don't believe in doing this right? Maybe God was telling you to listen to your heart and do what YOU think is suitable for you. And maybe He was telling you that your talents could be of better use somewhere else.

A special someone once told me, your heart is always talking to you. You've just gotta pay a little extra attention and take good notes. Follow your heart darling, you're worth so much more than this. Really.

Next time we talk, I'll tell you so much more, cuz right now, I don't know what to say, and I guess I don't have to say much.

But before I leave you to read this, and hope that it will heal you in some way, I just want you to know something really important. I love you, and I don't want to see you cry like this ever again, cuz you don't deserve this pain. But you know what? You can stop this pain, and never experience it again, only if you listen to your heart. It tells you millions...