And I have an illness. I'm not proud of that, or happy about that, but you taught me that it's not my fault, and I have nothing to be ashamed of, and I can, and perhaps should be afraid, but never embarrassed.
Honestly, I'm not just afraid. I'm petrified, horrified, terrified. I've never been so scared in my entire life. I've never cried so many tears for one single thing in such a short period of time . And when I told you that, I thought you would think that I'm exaggerating, that cuz I've always had this problem and nothing has happened, I would be fine, and I was just over-reacting everything.
You didn't think that. You said that you understand, and you will always be here. Seriously, word for word, I listened to you, and to tell you the truth, in that few moments that you talked to me, I forgot that I had a condition, and that I was scared to the core.
Then you shared with me your own health problems, and though I've always known you had such problems, I've never known the extent of them until now. Yet you accept them so well, and maybe that's just a facade, but I still think that you're so so so strong. And then you told me that we'll get through this together, literally and figuratively.
With you, I felt so "at peace" (quoted from Allison), and like I've found my hiding place, just like KX. Maybe I'm thinking too much, maybe you just care cuz I'm your student, and I thought so too for such a long time, but you told me this, and I promise I'll remember this forever.
"Darling, be brave, like Your Godmother..."
I'll be brave, like you, and I'll accept this the best way possible, like you, and I'll get through this, like you. It's gonna be a tough road, I know that, but I know too, I'll rise above them all. :) Yes, I'm still shaking with all sorts of emotions, but because of you, and many others, I know I'm not alone. Not now, not ever.
I'll be brave, like My Godmother...
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