"My Josh" :P

I just want to say that I'm so grateful to have people who care about me, my feelings, and everything that I let myself show. And can I just say that I have the bestest friends, like the BESTEST. And honestly, I really don't know where I will be, who I will be, and how I will be if it were not for them.

And you know, as we go on, and as our lives change, we grow apart, and though it's still kinda early (or so we feel) I just want to make sure that this message gets across to all those friends of mine out there. Regardless whether you are the people whom i share literally everything with, and go out for dates with you, or if you are "just another classmate", I need y'all to know that no matter how small, you've made a difference in my life, and though I can't promise that I'll remember every single thing that we've been through together, I guarantee, that I'll remember you, because it's not the things that we get through together that impact me, it's YOU.

And so today you asked me about TIB, and I always find it amazing how you guys actually read this blog and take to heart the things said here, like when I was so upset during EOYs last year, or when I write about random thoughts, sometimes pretty dark, and you guys actually will bother to even ask me about it, and about how I feel. And it just makes me feel so lucky to even know you people, and how sad it will be when we part one day (though we've all been through last year's "last-day-of-school-saga"). 

And just so you know, I think you're so lucky to have Josh, I mean or anyone to tell these things to for that matter, and yes I believe that I'll find my Josh one day, but actually when I look around, anyone could be my Josh... And maybe you're right, that I need to love unconditionally, and risk getting hurt, but at the same time learning to heal, and perhaps even finding who my real Josh is... Yes, I'll work on that. I will.

And to this other very special "you", thank you for everything. You always say I'm the only one who will do this and do that, but funny thing is that I think you are the only one who will do this and do that for me... So to all the crazy things we've been through together, good or bad, I just want you to know how grateful I am to even get to know you, and I don't hope we'll have the time of our lives together. I know we will, I mean just think about how much fangirling there will be? And how much ranting there will be? And how many late nights (or rather early mornings) there will be? :P