You know first we sang those songs of praise, and though I have never heard of any of those songs, for some reason when you all started singing, I felt as if I had known those songs for forever... Maybe that's the universal language, the language of love that God showers all of us with. And then Aunty Sally gave this lesson. Really, I can't think of a better time than today to come to your church. The lesson was about "My Experiences". More specifically, the Painful Experiences. Ha how more apt can the timing be since I'm facing one now right...
And Aunty Sally said that God chooses you to face a painful experience because He knows that you will be faithful, because He knows that you will uphold His glory, because He knows that you will get through it and become stronger and better. She also said that the Painful Experiences are for us to challenge ourselves to convert the pain into joy by helping people, and then finally into victory when you and the others around you defeat the Pain. And then she shared her story about how she found out she'll never have her own children, and how she realised that God didn't give her 1 child of her own because He was gonna give her so many more children that she can treat as her own, and love as her own. And now, she's happy.
When she mentioned this "loving a child like your own" thing, I can't stop thinking of Ms Chua. Honestly, I'm still super confused with her sudden confession of the whole "Godmother" thing. Don't get me wrong. I'm over the moon and extremely honoured to even be considered her Goddaughter, but I always wonder why Ms Chua never had her own children. You know I really really would like to be the child that Ms Chua never had, not just because I love her so very much, and treat her just like I treat my real mom, but also because I always feel she deserves so much more than she has. Not saying that I can bring her eternal happiness, but if I can make her smile, I really want to make her happy, because she is so so beautiful, so so strong, and so so angelic. All you need to do is to peel her strict and serious outer layers, and be amazed and taken aback by her Heart Of Gold.
Aunty Sally asked, at the end of the lesson, if I could do one thing for God, knowing that I will not fail, what would I do, and I told you, that I will help as many of His children as possible, because I believe that that is what He would want-for His children to help one another.
I guess right now, I'll just go with whatever is happening, and though I don't have confidence in medical science, or in myself, that I will be cured, I have confidence in God, that He will see me through this. And I'll just wait and see where He leads me to.
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